Sometimes... sometimes I daydream about what my life might have been like if I'd tried other instruments. It's fun to think about, even if I'm mostly content with the way my life is going right now. I say mostly only because it's hard - really hard - trying to separate my new self from the version of me my label tried to present. I don't even know who
I am anymore, but I'm loving where I'm going.
[Freestyle]
Roundtable Rival by Lindsey Stirling - Steampunk Western & Dubstep Violin
Maybe I could've been a violinist - a Classical Crossover/Dubstep Violinist, just like Lindsey Stirling! I love her sound and her style, she's so cool! She's really strong, too, and super funny. Not to mention I really love her hair!
[Headshot]
Level One by DJ Striden - EDM
Or perhaps I could've been a DJ! Mixing my own tracks and beats; full creative control to make whatever sound I wanted, with cool effects and everything! Imagine all the stuff I could come up with - I could make
anything!! But, I feel like there's a kind of emotional disconnect? I don't know, I'm so used to losing myself in my own playing that I think it would feel weird for me to create it artificially.
[Fullbody]
I took a chance... I took a shot.... And you might think I'm bulletproof, but I'm not...[/size]
Or maybe, if I hadn't signed to that stupid label, I might never have left that soft, simple country girl behind. I kind of miss her, she was young and naive and content to just be. There was no fighting with managers or arguing with venues, no glaring spotlights and no blinding paparazzi flashbulbs.
It feels like an entire world away, and I don't know how to connect with her any more. I feel like a totally different person now, and I'm not sure how much of a good thing that is